I鈥檝e spent the last five years trying to rationalize my own fear. I can still feel the accident, I can hear myself scream and I can see the blood in the water.
As the boat propeller sheared through my midsection, the severed pelvic bone offered just enough resistance to push my body away. By the time the 250-horsepower Yamaha’s blades reached my spine on the fourth strike, the impact was shallow enough only to crack three vertebrae and expose my spinal cord.
While I should have been paddling across the Molokai Channel, I spent the next hour laying face down in the back of a fishing boat in a pool of my own coagulating blood. Someone said over the radio, 鈥渉e鈥檚 not going to make it back to the harbor.鈥 Someone else asked me to talk to them about my upcoming聽wedding. I鈥檇 seen enough war movies to know that this was the part where I die.
But I made it. I can walk, I can paddle, and I still regularly jump out of motorboats.
The shock of being ripped apart doesn鈥檛 go away. When my thoughts drift back to the accident my body cringes like nails on a chalkboard. My back tenses in anticipation of impact when I board a propeller plane or use a circular saw. Most frightening is when I鈥檓 in a canoe race and about to jump out of our escort boat. My entire being screams 鈥淣O鈥 as I stand on the precipice.
My fear is irrational, and I know it. But no amount of statistics can eliminate the physical sense of fear I get when I approach a spinning blade.
聽die from propeller injuries in the U.S. 鈥 that鈥檚 about the same number of Americans who die annually聽聽鈥 and also the same number of Americans who die聽. The chances of any of that happening to you is聽聽million– the same odds as winning the聽
As an American,听聽to be killed by a police officer than by a terrorist or a propeller,听聽times more likely to die from cancer, and聽聽times more likely to die from a car accident.
As an American, you’re 55 times more likely to be killed by a police officer than by a terrorist or a propeller, 33,842 times more likely to die from cancer, and 1,904聽times more likely to die from a car accident.
I don鈥檛 think that I鈥檓 going to win the jackpot and I鈥檝e never been scared of being killed by a falling television.
So why am I so scared of propellers? And why is America so scared of Islamic terrorism?
Because, unlikely as they are, death by propeller or death by Jihad are justifiably terrifying mental images. We can鈥檛 control聽. The amygdala reacts to danger, but it doesn鈥檛 calculate the likelihood of it happening. And so our fears are rooted not in reality, but in the early evolution of our brain.
聽think that there will be a major terrorist attack on the U.S. in the near future and聽聽are willing to trade our own personal privacy for stricter anti-terrorism measures.
We鈥檙e using fear to dictate policy. And we鈥檙e making a dangerous mistake.
Donald Trump聽聽about seeing Muslims聽聽after 9/11.聽聽鈥淚slamic terrorism (is) the biggest threat facing America today.鈥 Ben Carson claims that we need 鈥渢o destroy their caliphate鈥 in order to 鈥渄estroy them before they destroy us.鈥 Ted Cruz made headlines by聽聽we need to have more 鈥渢olerance for civilian casualties.鈥
And Congresswoman Tulsi Gabbard continues聽聽after responding to all of that fear mongering with a vote to temporarily halt the flow of refugees.
Terrorists commit unpardonable acts of evil. But they do it to evoke an emotional response. They can鈥檛 take over western civilization and Sharia law will never trump our constitution. That鈥檚 not what we鈥檙e fighting.
Their only power is in inciting terror through horrendous acts of violence. We need to combat terrorism through reasonable military action and by fighting to ensure that the freedoms inherent in American society will聽.
But instead, irrational fear drives us to close our borders, give up our inalienable rights, and kill more civilians. And those are the results聽that the terrorists are looking for. That is the only way that they can win.
We have to remember that we鈥檙e fighting irrational fear鈥 not Islam.
Rational fears keep us safe. They keep me from texting and driving, and they are why the world鈥檚 largest ever gathering of world leaders were talking about聽聽this month. While it doesn鈥檛 make me any more relaxed around propellers, we need to understand the difference between rational and irrational fear. Despite my freak accident, my fear of propellers is irrational. Despite the beautiful weather today, fear of climate change is rational.
We rely on our politicians to be more informed and more rational than us. That is why聽. But, as the media jumps from crisis to crisis, truth, compassion, and temperance can鈥檛 break through, but fear mongering does.
As the media jumps from crisis to crisis, truth, compassion, and temperance can鈥檛 break through, but fear mongering does.
搁别尘别尘产别谤听聽with Mexico to stop Ebola? Or the聽? Or聽聽that was supposed to occur as a result of deficit spending?
They were wrong every time. Yet, they stick to the strategy 鈥 because fear mongering works.
Tulsi Gabbard聽made headlines recently聽by saying that we鈥檙e facing a possible 鈥渄evastating nuclear war鈥 with Russia if we don鈥檛 support Assad.聽,听, and Chris Christie are all saying that fighting climate change will 鈥渄estroy鈥 our economy.
While the constant threat of terrorism, Ebola, or nuclear war may make our palms sweat and our hearts race, they are now just another political tool in the never-ending race to win an election.
It would be easy to conclude here by saying that demagogic politicians are a greater threat to democracy than terrorists. But, I鈥檇 be falling into the same irrational trap of fear mongering. American democracy is not going to be beaten by fear of extremist ideology 鈥 whether it鈥檚 Islamic or conservative. I know that we鈥檙e better than that.
Our frontal lobe uses logic to temper our amygdala鈥檚 irrational fear. Rationality brought us down from the trees and onto our two feet, it allowed us to ascend out of the Dark Ages and into the Renaissance, and it led us to declare our inalienable rights outlined in the Declaration of Independence. Rationality is the only reason that I can still jump out of a motorboat.
Vibrant and contentious political debate is the backbone of a functioning democracy. But, our political dialogue needs to be based on substance and sound policy decisions, not memes and sound bites. We need to demand that our politicians and media give us accurate data so that we can differentiate between real fears that need to be acted upon and trumped up fears that do not.
After five years of battling my own fears, I鈥檝e finally realized that it鈥檚 ok to be afraid. We don鈥檛 have to overcome聽all聽fear鈥攚e just can鈥檛 give in to聽颈谤谤补迟颈辞苍补濒听fears.
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